Saturday, 13 October 2012

just one of those moments

Have you ever had one of those days?  Or one of those moments? (Because really they rarely last all day)  I did today.  And no, it didn't last all day (thank goodness) but it was hard...  You do know what I am talking about though, don't you?  One of those moments when all of a sudden you just can't handle it any more and you feel like you are going to cry when you don't really have one specific reason, it is just everything.
So anyway, that was me this afternoon.  Admittedly I do have full license to be stressed right now... I had three midterms last week, my pre-op yesterday which meant a one day down one day back trip to Toronto, two midterms coming up this week, and then my surgery.  So yes, my life is crazy, but usually I can handle it... I just keep moving forward and I seem to eventually get through.  But today, this afternoon, I just all of a sudden couldn't handle it.  Part of it is that I just really, really need a break... (Nothing long, I would be happy with a day!)  But, that is not going to happen for a while, probably not until Christmas.
But Emily, I hear you say, what about after surgery?  Well all I have to say is have you ever recovered from surgery?  Well neither have I, but I can imagine that it is not really that restful. So that doesn't count.
And maybe you think I am being whiny when I say that right now my life is really hard and maybe compared to some, my life is easy, but right now for me it is hard.

But, I am really enjoying school (when it is not trying to kill me); I am so happy that my surgery is finally happening, and that I can begin to heal; my family is amazing, and loves me so much (even when I freak out :P); the fall colours are so beautiful where I am right now; and I know that God is always looking out for me, even when I feel overwhelmed.

I just need to remember to take one day at a time, and not worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow is a new day.  Maybe that sounds a little too trite but it is just so true :)

I am hoping that tomorrow looks something like this :)